Thursday, December 29, 2011

life through an amateur's lens



If I was asked what word describes me the best, I'd probably answer "Random". 

Just realised I haven't posted any good photos lately. Yesterday I looked at a wedding photography service's Facebook fanpage, which inspired me so much. Surely, my camera is NOT as good as theirs, but at least I've got my passion in photography back! Taking random and meaningless photos like I always used to do gave me lots of fun and joy.

Click here for more photos!


Sunday, December 25, 2011

at some point of our lives, we did believe.

When we were little, most of us used to believe in Santa Claus. Every Christmas eve, we waited for him all night. We wanted to see that kindhearted old man who always brought present for all children around the world. Our parents told us always to be nice, because Santa only loved nice children. And we believed.

As the time passed by, we all grew up. And we started to realise that Santa never existed, that all the stories about Santa were only made by adults, and used by our parents in order to tell us to be nice (because they knew we were going to believe). We were so disappointed with the fact that Santa was just a childhood fantasy. Miracle would never happen.

But only if we could see... Santa does exist in our lives. He lives around us, brings joy to us. We just don't notice him, since he's not always in a form of an old fat man in red with white beard laughing "Hohoho!". He may be in a form of people around us -- friends, teachers, parents, siblings, neighbours, and even strangers! Those who put smiles on our faces, those who bring joy to our hearts. Yes, modern Santa doesn't always come with his sleigh and reindeers :D

And maybe... we can also be a Santa in other people's lives? :)

Merry Christmas, everyone ♥ May this Christmas bring us lots of happiness and peace. God bless you xx

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

new you!

Below are the gifts I received on my baptism day:


A spiritual book worth reading by Max Lucado, from a teacher :) In English, the title means 'You Change My Life'. Consists of many true short stories about the power of love, faith, hope, and giving. Very inspiring.



He also gave me these crystal rosary beads.



And... Cat's eye rosary beads from Selvi. Really love the colour of the stones!

Thank them for the amazing surprises! But actually, the greatest gift was the baptism itself :) Hope through this baptism, I can be a better person. I want to be a light for my family and society, the one who spreads love and smile to people around me. I want to be a better Vilda, who never forgets to pray...  never feels lazy to go to church... and never feels lazy to help others. Aja aja, fighting!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

le birthday girl


Bonjour, I'm officially 15!

It's H+1, actually. I wasn't in the mood for posting yesterday, since I hadn't been feeling really well. I'd been vomitting since the previous day, and also been taking lots of medicine. Even until yesterday, I didn't even feel like eating, doing activities, nor listening to the music! Lost appetite, lost my sense of good music. Yeah, being sick on your special day really sucks.

Anyway, I really thank Him for the 15 years of my life. I really wish to be the totally new and better me ♥ And oh, I'd like to thank those sweet people around me. Really love you guys :*

And the last but not the least, thank you, my lovely readers and blogger fellas!


xoxo,

the 15 years old Vilda.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

celebrating freedom


Glad to be back again!

And glad to have finished the exam. Well, it wasn't really easy, though. We struggled a lot because of the heaps of things we had to study. Just be prepared for the result ;) *crossed fingers
Been so happy because I no longer have to study hard (at least until that back-to-school day). I'm back to doodling, reading, taking photos, bbm-ing with friends 'til we drop, etc, etc, etc. I also took many photos of my classmates (mostly candid!), uploaded it, and found myself smiling at those photos.
And it's also getting closer to my birthday. I don't expect really much, except for the jumbo pizza (!). Also can't wait for the Christmas! ♥

Ah, just realised I've been so random in this post! So, how's your end of term, people? Wish you had a good one! Happy Saturday, and have lots of fun! :)

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

sweet oldies


Who else here misses the old days...

...when we wrote diaries instead of tweeting?
...when we printed photos and put them inside a photo album instead of uploading them to facebook?
...when we sent letters or greeting cards instead of sending e-mails and texts?
...when we played with toy cars or teddy bears instead of nintendos?
...when we used colourful floppy disks (which I found so cute) instead of flash disk?

World does change so fast.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

like a bo$$

The final exam had started. We started with maths (which made me frustrated instantly) and religion, and tomorrow we'll have civics and bahasa. Well, I'm not really prepared for the exam. I had no enough time to study as there were many assignments to finish before the report card printed. Fortunately, my friends were so helpful. The guys helped me with the IT, and the gals helped me with arts. At first, it seemed like the assignments couldn't be finished on time, but because of their help, it seemed possible :) for that, thanks a lot, peeps.

Anyway, best of luck for those who are having final exam, too! ♥

Sunday, November 27, 2011

fufu berry



Don't ask me why I named this post 'fufu berry'. I just love the word 'fufu', it's kinda cute for me.

FYI, I'm not using Curve. That Curve in the pics is my mom's. I only use it sometimes for bbming and twittering. Apart from the hypnotizing bbm and twitter features, I'm not so interested in blackberrys.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

quickie

Hello there,

Many things happened today. There was a "Go Green" event held at school today, so we all went to school. Again, my teacher asked me to take the photos of the event, and also make an article about it for school bulletin. After that, I had a lunch at a small restaurant nearby with my friend, then we went to her house to select some photos from her laptop to be printed for our assignment.

When we was about to go to SMS to print the photos, I realised I lost my IDR 41,500! I really had no idea how I could lose it. Perhaps I left it in the small restaurant where I had my lunch, or maybe the woman who served me there forgot to give me the change. I got panicked for a while, thinking about what my mom would say. I knew she wouldn't be angry, but I just couldn't stop blaming myself. My mom worked really hard to earn money, but what had I done? I suddenly felt like the most useless child in the world. 

Finally we decided not to go back to the restaurant. We kept going ahead, walking to SMS. We had a superb day there! We spent time taking photos in the food court, walking around, doing nothing, talking and laughing about everything... Well, I could forget about the lost money for a while. I remember we laughed so hard when we looked at the photos we printed, and whispered when we saw a super duper romantic couple sitting next to us at Solaria. Ok, SMS was really full of couples here and there.

Eventually, we went home after we got tired of walking. My mom picked me up, and she wasn't angry at me. But somehow I still felt so miserable about it. Even until the moment I'm typing this.

After all, today was great.

Ok, got to sleep now, people. Gonna post some photos tomorrow. Good night, and see you! xx


Tuesday, November 22, 2011

a little note



Since I was little, my sister has been one of my best playmates. We had many things in common, we had shared interests, we played and grew up together. Of course we had quarrel sometimes, but it didn't last long. We're just like bestfriends. But then I realised, she's more than that -- she's my inspiration. There are so many things I could learn from her.

She may not get perfect grades at school. She isn't so popular. She's never had a boyfriend. She isn't the most beautiful girl. But one thing I always remember about her : she never complains about those things. She always seems to enjoy her life, she doesn't complain a lot like I do, she doesn't really care about her appearance and people's thoughts, and she seems quite optimistic. Perhaps I have some things she doesn't have. But I guess I'm not as happy as she is. That's probably the reason why I always want to learn from her. Such a positive aura she has.

And I'm so glad to see her happy face today. She got a surprise from her friends, she spent a precious time with them, and I'm sure she's still feeling so happy right now. I'm happy for her. 

Happy birthday, dear cutie! You're 16 now! You may grow older, but I really hope your heart will stay young forever. And may your dreams come true! My love always for you. GBU ♥

Sunday, November 20, 2011

weekend is weekend



Things make me happy this weekend:
1. My mom's baking ♥ which is waaaay too lovely
2. It's getting closer to my sis's birthday. Too bad, I don't have enough money to buy something as a present :(
3. Learning to sketch!
4. Happy Sunday churching o:)

Things that piss me off this weekend:
My computer! It's way too slow and out of date. I'm sure it's been infected by viruses, but none of my antiviruses still work well.

How's yours, people? Have a great one!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

call me late

I saved a lot of special messages (you know what I mean) in my phone memory card. Well, just in case I wanted to bring back old memories. Months ago, I tried the back-up feature in my phone, and voila!, I lost quite a lot of the messages! And hours ago, when I was about to read one of the most important messages, I just realised that I lost it! Geez, it really pissed me off. If only I wasn't that curious about the back-up feature...

Okay, enough with the phone thingies.

The fact that I hate being the center of attention, especially in public, really made me feel anxious. Am I too late to improve it? I'm afraid I am. Seriously. I know I'll need such skill in my future. I remember when I was in kindergarten, my teacher chose me for a Chinese dance performance for the graduation day. I practised a lot with my friends. But on the performance day, I felt so nervous that I wasn't even brave enough to look at the audience. 
Even until today, I'm not really good in public speaking. I often forget my speech, so I end up speaking awkwardly. Oh God, help me!


Got to study now, people. See you later. Good night! :)


Roppan fail. Made this last week as my breakfast. Somehow it was still nice ♥

Sunday, November 13, 2011

another confession

I always said that I'd forgotten my past completely. But last night I just realized that... it wasn't that easy. Maybe I no longer feel miserable or sad about it, but somehow it still affects my present days. I don't think it's good for me.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

my drug


Anyway, I've been thinking about tumblr-ing again. Well, I'll still use my old tumblr, but sure I'll change the concept - I'll not only post my doodles, but also some good pics I took (if there are :p) What do you think? Do visit and enjoy! :)

Monday, October 31, 2011

flash


I've told you before : my doodle sucks!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

not-so-hectic days

Been so busy these days! I was asked by my teacher to help the 8th graders with their story telling competition. Well, it's not as easy as it sounds, but I quite enjoy it. Not only because I don't have to join the classes :p but also because it's a new experience for me. Of course I don't work alone -- I work with a partner, and we also have a team on properties and costume. We all work hard for this.

So the story is about Cinderella (and I always love fairytale!), which I find so familiar. We have to make the glass shoes, tiara, magic wand, pumpkin coach, ball gown, and so on.

And oh, the bad news is we still have to join the tests and do the assignments. Pheww. this is harder than I thought. But we still have to be optimistic anyway! :)
May God bless us for tomorrow! and good luck with your days too, peeps ♥

p.s Sorry if I don't reply your messages on the chatbox so soon. Sometimes I just don't feel like checking it ;) but I promise I will.

 Me and my partner (-in-crime), Vano. WOOT!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

pointless.

Seriously, I hate the way my friends still treat the juniors badly. Well, maybe not all of them. But hey, just because you're 2 years older, doesn't mean you have more rights than them. They still have rights to speak their mind. I can't see the point of hating and judging someone just because they're different. If you think they're flirty or somewhat, really, it's none of your business. No matter you like it or not. Shouting and yelling at them just make school a hell for them. I've ever been in that place, and it was really horrible. That's why I'm telling you all this : bullying. is. not. cool.

I'm the lost bunny

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

#1 because of horror movies

Monday, October 17, 2011

groaaaarrr.

It's been a week since my last post. Thank God, I feel much better now ♥

And I would also thank my mom for cheering me up again. She said I should do better in high school if I really wanted to get a scholarship to my dream university. Now I can't stop thinking about it. Will I ever be there? And what to do in high school? Studying so hard? Improving my current skills? Learning new skills? Doing hobbies? Earning money? Building good relationship with others? Joining non-academic organizations? Or even... all of them? Okay, it starts to make me feel dizzy.

Maybe the first thing I should learn is to take things not too seriously.

It's dark already, and I've got to finish my assignments and study for tomorrow's maths test. Au revoir, see you later! ♥ xx

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

nothing to lose



"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55 : 8 - 9)

Yesterday I went to my dream school, just to ask for further information about the scholarship offered. I also showed them the copy of my report cards. But, guess what? They said I wouldn't be able to take the scholarship test, because my maths score didn't exceed the minimum requirement. So I just went home hopelessly. I was so sure that it wouldn't be easy to let go my dream. I mean, I'd always been dreaming about that school these 2 years, and finally I had to let it go. If only I studied harder, I would get better grades, and I would be able to take this scholarship test. 

But life still goes on.

I'm trying to keep this on my mind : it's not really about where you are. It's about how you think of it, and how you survive there. And I'm also trying not to take these all too seriously. I believe God will always give me the best.

It's not easy, though. But at least, I'm trying.

Ganbatte, dear myself!


Saturday, October 8, 2011

back to nature

Seems like I haven't been doodling so much since that day. And noooow.... I've just decided to start doodling again, like I used to do! :)



Current fav: wafer bricks. Random? Yeah, that's me.
Stay tuned for more doodles (hopefully) :)

Thursday, October 6, 2011

senior high wannabe

Everybody's busy studying for high school entrance test. And me? I haven't even bought the application form. Soon I'll buy one, but deep down inside my heart, there's such a big dilemma. Hey, am I making a right decision?
Hope God will show me the right way.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

just saying :)

I think having ONE person who really loves me is better than having ONE THOUSAND people who only know my name.


Saturday, October 1, 2011

go for it.

Ah, I'm so sorry again for not being so productive lately. We had a lot of school events this week. So tiring, but worth it :)

I'm planning to apply for a scholarship in the school I've been dreaming of, but so far I haven't made the final decision. Help me. I haven't got much time to think.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

birthday doodles




The doodles I made for my birthday girls. What do you think? Well, I don't think the doodles (and the photographs themselves) are good. But seriously, I made those with love. ♥ Happy birthday, dear friends. xx

Saturday, September 24, 2011

brand new episodes

How's your world, people? Mine is weird.

Maybe I forgot to tell you that I'm having my mid-term exam these days. And maybe most of you have noticed the change in me. Yeah, I don't feel so motivated nowadays. I lost my productivity. I don't know what's wrong with myself. Really, I have no idea. Maybe I'm just so stressed out that I need a day off.

And everything's been so different. 9th graders' stuffs are cool *wink*, but at the same time, stressful. But somehow,  I love the way we're improving. New stuffs, new love stories, new life problems... My life is more like a mega-long movie now.

Oh, by the way, what do you want for my next post? I'm open for requests and suggestions :) thanks before. Have a joyful Saturday!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

big hooray!

So what's new?

I attended an ESL competition held at SHB this morning, with 9 others. And there were also 4 others joining Mandarin competition.
The ESL was much easier than we thought, but too bad, my vocabulary ain't good.

The good news is... I got the first place! My friend, Charisma, also got the third place. For me, it's quite astonishing, since our competitors were also great. Some of them were from a school with Cambridge curriculum! They even spoke English very well to their teacher(s).

I'd like to thank my teachers for always supporting me. And also my friends -- you all rock! And oh, for the students from SHB and the committee who held SPECTA (the name of the event). Thanks, thanks, thanks!


Wednesday, September 14, 2011

finally, back

Sorry for the late posting. I didn't feel really well, and school assignments weren't really friendly... It's just so hard to decide what to post when we have many things to do and to think about, right?

So these are the photos I took these weeks. Hope you enjoy your day, and see you! :*




Wednesday, September 7, 2011

changed my mind


Suddenly I don't feel like leaving for Singapore after middle school. But I haven't decided whether to stay in my current school or moving to another school. Though I love being here in my current school, I want to try something new but less extreme, like moving to another school somehow. I still have like 1 month to decide. But I always keep in my mind that :

"No matter how good your school reputation is, no matter how great the infrastructure and facilities are, no matter how brilliant the curriculum is, it's all USELESS if you don't work hard to prepare for your future."

Am I right?

Sunday, September 4, 2011

the last day of holiday

Say hello to Ji! (read: chi)
And I haven't even completed my to-do list! :( Don't feel like going back to school, teehee. Surely I'll be as busy as usual, but don't worry and stay tuned! :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

cock-a-doodle-doo

Happy Eid Mubarak 1432 H for those who celebrate it! :)

Below : rookie doodles and designs I made this morning. I wish I had a graphic tablet and 3D design softwares! I'm an amateur in photoshop, so if you could help me, I'd be glad ♥

MacBook Air? Not really.

Swiss Roll accessories

Barber sign fail. Hmm, I have a problem drawing parallel lines.

By the way, did you notice the new Twitter button on my sidebar? What do you think? I'm going to make some more for my pages ;)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

an old stuff

It was 2 A.M already, but I hadn't felt sleepy at all. I was lying on my bed, texting with you, telling you something we called as 'bedtime story'. I told you the problems I had in my past. Though I was telling you about those irritating memories, I still felt happy, because of you. Well, we were just friends that time. But I'd already had a crush on you, and I thought you had the same feeling, because that was the first time I met a boy who's patient enough to listen to my pointless story until late night.

And before we decided to go to bed, I told you, "Well, I wanna go to the toilet now, but I'm.... afraid."

"What to be afraid about?" you asked.
"Err, I'm afraid that there's... something out there. Yes, something... you know what I mean. It's dark and silent outside."
"LOL,"
I knew how silly I was.
"Don't be so afraid. Trust me, there's NOTHING. It will be just ok."
"But what if... there IS?"
"Fine. Just go ahead. Imagine that I'm beside you."
*silence*
That thing you said made me stronger. And all I could say was just, "OK, WISH ME LUCK!" Ridiculous, right? Finally I ran out of my room quickly to the toilet, and jumped back to my bedroom like crazy. Yeah, you were right, there was nothing.

***

That was the day I started to think that you'd always be there for me to assure me that everything's not as bad as I always thought. I kept that in my mind, even until now. Although you're no longer with me, I can still find myself looking back on that day everytime I feel scared, afraid, or insecure. Sometimes I feel disappointed to know that you're no longer here, but then I realize, I can still have you in my imagination, and it's enough for me.

It doesn't mean I feel lonely. It's just me who always can't stop to look back on the sweet stuffs we left behind.

For everything, thanks.



Saturday, August 27, 2011

tsk!


You can easily spot me in a crowd, because it seems like I'm the only one who doesn't have lots of confidence (okay, this is so cheesy!). Sometimes, no matter how good my clothes are, no matter how hard I'm trying, people around me always seem to look better than me. Sigh. I find it complicated.

By the way, I've changed the header! Not so good, eh? Yeah, my drawing sucks. But don't worry, I'm learning!

Got to take a rest now. So tired after hanging out (in clothes that didn't really suit my hyper personality -- an oversized tee and a skirt!). Good night! Have a blissful weekend ♥

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

junior high

Perhaps I don't write here as much as I used to, right? For that, I'm sorry :) School life's so busy. And my internet connection has been so poor lately.

Since I had no idea about what to write, so let's just talk about school!

Yeah, I've been enjoying school so far, no matter how exhausting it is. If you think I'm only talking about the friends and teachers, you're not 100% right. I also LOVE studying there. Yes, actually it's quite hard to say, but that's the fact. I tend to feel so lazy and tired, but it's fun anyway. I enjoy learning and studying many things, improving my skills, and building my relationships with everyone, of course.

And how about yours, people? Hope you're doing and feeling good :) ♥


Friday, August 19, 2011

bad hair day. phewww.


MY HAIR IS KILLING ME SLOWLY. #epic

Sunday, August 14, 2011

can we have that song played again?

I'm planning a makeover for my blog. I'll change the header, the pages, and some other page elements (don't worry, I'll try to keep them simple). Perhaps it will take me quite long. But please stay tuned, because makeover doesn't always mean hiatus :)
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