Yesterday I wrote a letter to my psychology teacher about him, and here's her reply (of course she wrote in Indonesian, but I try to translate it into English) :
After reading your letter, I can simply say that he still loves you, but he doesn’t want to get into a relationship (The reason? You can ask him. Maybe he isn't ready yet, or he wanted to focus on his study, or maybe he isn't allowed... etc.)
Maybe that's why he always stays away from you. He worried that you would fall in love again with him, and it would be harder for you to let him go. He doesn’t want to hurt you again.
That's from his point of view. Meanwhile, he doesn't know that it makes you want him more, love him more. As a matter of fact, girls are more emotional, so they dream so much, they have a lot of imagination...
Consider this honestly : is it true that you just want to be his friend? Or maybe you want more? Who do you treat him as?
If you really want to be just a friend for him, you don't really have to tell him your true feelings. You don't have to worry about what he thinks about you. The truth is, he doesn't want to get back with you again. Remember it. Now, you have to change yourself : try not to imagine about him. Stop trying hard to communicate with him. Those all just make you want more!
Especially if you dream too high (e.g. imagining about these : he comes to you, and then says 'I love you', and then asks you whether you want to get back with him)
Find things to do with your life, build friendship with more people, and then you can really consider him as a friend, not more.
You don't have to feel guilty -- this is normal! The more you feel guilty, the more it's difficult for you to forget him.
Just try it, girl! I know that the falling-in-love thingies are complicated and difficult to solve. It takes time, but of course YOU CAN!
I'm looking forward to hear more about your problem ...
Aww, I feel much better after reading that! What she said is just so true! And sure I’ll take her advice. You Rock, Ma’am! ♥